Friday, October 12, 2007 @ 9:57 PM

Stress, happiness, depress.

STRESS.
I am again lazy to blog, but here. I'm back.

Stress has taken over my life this quarter. Although there have been many fun moments these past few weeks, the pile-up of projects and extra work and meetings has been hard to keep up with. Not to mention the fact that all the times I've been pulled out of class is scaring me.

Do I mention why? Well, I might as well. We start with the projects. This is a quarterly thing which I usually hate doing. But this quarter, we were given projects that were killer. [If you don't mind my saying.] I mean it. There was one particular subject which had our entire batch staying up at insane and ungodly hours in the morning, just to type and finish it up.

Luckily, that's all done. But there are a lot of things on everyone's mind. Why did everything suddenly turn out all hectic? Suddenly, my schedule is filled with meetings every day: Tuesday and Fridays are Gazette meetings. Thursday is for the Choir meetings. And whenever I think I've got some time on my hands, I get called to the office to do some interpretative dance thing. [We've recently learned that this dance thing will be going on for the remainder of the school year.]

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HAPPINESS.

I've been happy. Why? There have been a lot of reasons. Despite the stress that has been taking over my life, I've managed to keep a happy face on and laugh my troubles away. Plus, I've had a lot of fun moments with my friends recently :) And some things which I'd gladly rewind time for, just for them to happen again :>

But the greatest reason of my happiness, -- or so I thought, until this week -- was that I was finally through. Through with a person who has unfailingly brought color into my life. Even my friends thought the same, and because of that I felt light and extremely, extremely pleasant towards everyone.

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DEPRESS.

But that happiness faded away, just recently. I don't know. Whatever I thought I was through with, apparently, I was not. Far from it, I have to say. It seems depressing that there are times when I wish for something and know that it can never happen.

Depression has clouded my mind also because many people around me seem to be the same. I don't know. There have been people who have shared their depression with me and know my state. And, well, this is messed up. xP I can't explain.

Grades are another issue that depress me. Yes, I know what you're going to say. But in me, I know that I haven't even scratched the surface of "work". I've been treating this year as a joke, so far. It would be nice to figure out how to fix this.

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•••

carissa.
chetts. petra. pets. cheter. :]
NOT EMO.
maybe a little. ;)

flawed, but happy.
quirky and noisy,
often tactless.
can be annoying.
can be obnoxious.
but is as true as the sky is blue.

weak and frail, inside.
easily sick. cries easily --
-- when no one looks.
but makes up for all that with a loud voice..
and a hyper view on life. :D
loves to smile.
and make others smile.
no matter how crummy she feels inside.

♥♥♥

Hazel. Charlene. Marcial. Jazmine. Nappy.

Hazel. Hanna. Daniela. Joanne. Jane.

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